Rendition 4 from the Rendition series. I made this artwork and the other 'Renditions' while processing the asymmetrical duality of ancestry (living in relationship to ones ancestors and being an ancestor to others we have not yet met) and making meaning out of my place in history.

At the time of this collection I had spent a year in exploration of the beautiful and tragic aspects of my Spanish heritage including the events of nearly a century past that led my family into exile from fascist Spain.  Significantly, I spent the same year also contemplating my own role as an ancestor (to children? and if not to children then to whom? and how?) as I discussed parenthood with each of my partners and with both at once. This elongating perspective was full of anger, fascination, hope, sorrow and love, often all at once.  

Each Rendition is a distillation of a critical moment, emotion, story or relationship.  One describes how polyamory compounded the difficulty of every parenting conversation.  Another tells how I watched some of my deepest sorrows alchemically turn to beauty.  A third holds the story of the moments of decision.  Together the Renditions are my treasury of explorations of past and future.